This world is so UGLY,
that even there are RULES,
it does not WORK,
there is no CONTROL against US,
the UGLIEST LIVING CREATURE,
on this UGLY PLANET,
cause CREATURES likes us only seek for a CERTAIN GOAL,
and the ACHIEVEMENT we SEEK,
is known  as ETERNAL FREEDOM,
yes ETERNAL FREEDOM is what all we seek,
STRESS-FREE DAYS, STUDY-FREE DAYS,
WORK-FREE DAYS, PEACEFUL DAYS,
WAR-FREE DAYS,
but all this only EXIST,
in the WORLD we call...
the BEAUTIFUL WORLD,
our OWN complex WORLD,
but at TIMES,
when we're ENJOYING such BEAUTY,
there are some CREATURE out there,
SHATTERING its surface,
a LAYER by LAYER,
until we RETURN to the UGLY WORLD.

I just want freedom,
I just want to spend time with my friends,
I just want to enjoy with those who can put a face in my face,
I can say I'm just fed up with the place HOME,
its the UGLIEST place I've ever known,
I can never sustain a smile for even 10 SHORT SECOND
but once I step a feet out of this BOUNDARIES,
I can even smile FOREVER,
is it just I've forgotten how to SMILE,
or I'm just more REBELLIOUS than ever,
I lived in a home of SORROW,
but in a WORLD of JOY,


I guess of 100 over people I know,
only minimal of 2 who understands,
a maximum of 5,
and all I have to,
is to suffer another 2 bloody years,
and I'm off this cage,
my wings can be strong again,
and I can fly anywhere,
I can own the FREEDOM I wished for,


she saw me,
she recognized me,
she realized I was seating near her,
feel so sorry,
didn't know what to say to her,
don't know how to approach,
...
if you're reading this,
erm,
never mind,
things are fine like this,

oh yeah..
so I wan't to thank this persons,
RICHARD, BEN, HAFEZ , & ALISON,
you guys are the best among the best,
to the others,
geez,
I don't even know if I  should continue calling you guys as friends or not,
those who are reading this blog I mean,
not even a word or care from you guys,
damn disappointed,
didn't know I only had such little amount of friends who cares for me,
and of course it only implies to those who read about me going to japan,
well, its already march by tomorrow,
geez, you guys are so cold,
I really should have went there,
and I should've stayed there FOREVER,
didn't know I have JERKS as friends,
you yourself can tell if you are,
I don't want to point you,
I only know you read, you even commented,
but you didn't even give a single concern,
you're the worst of the worst,
I must be blind for allowing you to get ways to be in contact with me,
that day, was the day I regretted the most,

putting that JERK aside,
thanks Ben and Hafez,
you guys are people I can really call brother,
others I don't know lar,
and Richard and Alison,
thanks for not saying that much,
but Richard you bastard,
you failed,
think for yourself where you tripped,

so much has happened,
this world is really UGLY...
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